When I first started this blog a few weeks ago, I thought it would be a mommyblog about my life as a sahm of 4 yo twins. Little did I know that one week into mommyblogging as a sahm I would turn into a wahm.
As it turns out, the week after I started it, my husband decided he had to shut his business of 9 years down and our life has been a bit topsy turvy since then. After stuggling to rebuild his business for the past 2 years from an ex-partner embezzeling money and 2 very opportunistic employees while my husband was out for surgery, he realized it was time to move on.
The last 2 weeks of June we were in a race to physically shut the office down and liquidate assests. It was very hard for me to watch what my husband poured his life into for so many years be closed down. We learned that while it is much easier to tear something down than to build it up, it takes a long time to clean up the rubble after it is torn down. In a way, we went through mourning the loss of the business (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance). I really seemed to stay stuck in the anger stage for awhile but have finally let most of that anger go.
In July, we began to regroup. Mr. Right has been busy sending out resumes, meeting with recruiters, and interviewing with potential employers. Additionally, I decided to begin political consulting. I have volunteered on numerous campaigns in the past in various positions. This is the first time I am working in politics for money. So far, I have 3 clients and I am working to secure more.
Now, after being out of the “workforce” aka paid employee rather than volunteer and mother for the last 6 years, I am a work-at-home-mom. It is a bit of an adjustment. The children do not start back to preschool until late August. I have enjoyed their company and the time we have spent together this summer. I do not relish the thought of them going back to school. I will miss their company throughout the day while they are in preschool.
The difficulty we are facing right now is that Mr. Right and I are constantly trying to get work done from the house and trying to parent the children at the same time. It is such a balancing act. It is hard to say to the children, you need to go back to play until I finish this project I am working on when I guilty that I cannot play with them. Hopefully, when they are in preschool, I can make the absolute most of productive use of the time they are away from home so that when I pick them up from school I can focus on them until after they go to bed.
At this point we really are not sure what the future holds for us. We hope that we will be able to keep the household cash flow working so that we do not have to move or make too many more drastic lifestyle changes. Still, if we do have to make more changes, we know we have each other, our precious children, our loving family, and our compassionate friends. We have relied on God so much during this time. I am so thankful to God for giving me such a wonderful husband and such precious children. We will take it one day at a time. Minute by minute we will continue to survive and beginn to thrive again soon.
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